31/12/2010

This is the last post of this year.... And what can I say but : this was the shittiest year EVER. haha.
I just hope next year is going to be better.

To end this shitty year, I accidentally sprained my wrist while taking off my shirt a few days ago, and it hurts SO bad since then....
Now I'm all alone to end this year.

I say the F word for all those hypocrites I met or I discovered this year.

So long, and thanks for all the fish!

15/12/2010

I had the weirdest dream ever, last night....
When I told about it to a friend and to my brother, they told me I was a Effing Geek and that I should see a psychologyst haha.
I was a kind of mix between, Star Wars, Harry Potter and Metal Gear Solid.
Weird as shit, I scared myself when I woke up haha.

this is my favorite Star Trek Quote (ok i'm trolling)

04/12/2010

Yep, I'm losing myself in video games...

I bought metal gear Solid 4: Guns of the Patriots, this week and I just can't stop playing.
I spent 11 hours in only 2 days. This game is so AWESOME that I'm fascinated.
Everything is beautiful, the story is well done... The game would have been perfect if there wasn't so much long videos. Or at least if it was possible to play more.

"I'm a shadow, one that no light will shine on. As long as you follow me, you'll never see the day...

You were the lightning in that rain, you can still shine through the darkness."

18/11/2010

Just to say goodbye to the sweetest little thing on earth.
My little rat Makino, has passed away this afternoon. Leaving us very sad.
I hope she knew we loved her SO much that words couldn't describe it.
We're all gonna miss you....

06/10/2010

I ask for so little. Just fear me, love me, do as I say and I will be your slave.

I ask so little. Just let me rule you, and you can have everything that you want.

Jareth, Labyrinth

06/10/2010

Geek Styled movies are to be release in the next 2 or 3 years. I just can't wait to watch them all!
Super heroes from comic books are the best !!!

Star Trek 2

X-Men Origins : Magneto

GI Joe 2

The Green Lantern

The Flash

Justice League

Superman 2

Batman 3

Spiderman 4

The Avengers

Captain America

Thor

04/10/2010

yey! I got my book last Thursday :"The Neverending Story" and I read the 1st 2 chapters.
I just have to say : wow, I love it!
Of course I know I'm gonna love the whole story because I'm a big fan of the movies since I'm a kid. But movies and books can be very different.
Anyway, it seems like it is a very very good book.

14/09/2010

I'm listening to "Duality" by Slipknot, and I can only remember how much it hurt me when Paul Gray died. I wondered if everything was about to be over. I was like "Oh my gosh, that can't be true yall must be kidding, right?" and then I saw the news on TV, magazins, internet, even my dad told it to me. I wondered why did that happen.... At the end I remained speechless.
Slipknot has been my first metal big love. I remember I've been the happiest girl on earth the day I bought IOWA in a virgin Megastore. Imagine a 13 years old girl screaming their songs ahah kinda funny/creepy.
People = shit, left behind.... well I was gonna write my favorite songs but I love them all.

I don't listen to them as much as I did before, because I now know that there are many many other bands and music style.
But, I don't know, they are a little special to me, as eminem or the sex pistols. That must be because they've been the first in something.

08/09/2010

I wonder if you did change your mind.

I'm just making crap.
Everything is a mess. I can't do what I wanna do, and I freaking don't know why.What usually work very well, don't work at all today.
Food, decoration, drinks.
Nothing.
And I'm tired, so tired that I'm almost crying because it's getting on my nerves.

I do need some rest.
I do need people to be with. So I'm not staying all alone more than a day in the week.

Going to my ophthalmologist appointment tomorrow afternoon.
Need to have an appoint with my hair dresser for next week.
And then, Off With My Own Head!

07/09/2010

2 days left before my appointment with the ophthalmologist. I'm just praying to have something to avoid those terrible headaches.

Other than that, I'm gonna have my party in 10 days.
I just can't wait, but have so much work until then!
Cooking, decoration, trying to find things to do....
I just hope the weather won't be too bad, this way we'll be able to go out and everything.

30/08/2010

"I try to make sense of things. Which is why, I guess, I believe in
destiny. There must be a reason that I am as I am. There must be."

Becentennial Man.

14/08/2010

that's crazy as hell.
The more the time goes by, more I have sight problems... headaches, blur sight.
I can't stay on my computer or draw or watch TV.... more than 30 minutes in a row.
THAT SUCKS... haha...

Anyway, I'm really planning to spend the next year in the US.
I had a talk about this with my parents, and they seem ok with that.
Because I don't know what else I would do if I couldn't leave....
Approximate departure month : December or January...

let's hope it's gonna be possible!

08/08/2010

Planning to go to Disney Land Paris in October, with my little brother.
His girlfriend may come. I don't know yet, she'll tell us tonight.
150€ for = 2 nights in a hotel + round-trip ticket + a ticket for 2 Parks + metro tickets + food
pretty cheap!

I really Hope that pucca will come with us.

08/08/2010

me b-day is the day after tomorrow.
It's gonna be the most boring day of the year 2010.
All of my friends are working or far... very far away.
I don't expect anything cool. I don't even want a birthday cake..... 'cause I put on weight... 6 fucking pounds, since I came back from the US.
And I feel so bad about it.
so... yeah, I'm gonna be 21, and all alone : FUN
can't wait to have my birthday party in September

29/07/2010

This morning, I arrived 35 minutes earlier that I had, at work. I could've sleep 30 more minutes...
Damn, it been such a loooooong and boring day. Plus, I think I'm sick...
So everything's awesome!

I'm watching JailHouse Rock, with Elvis Presley, and I just love it. He SOOOO looks like Him... that's amazing!
anyway, I need to have an idea for my mum's B-day present. I don't know what the heck I'm gonna give her..

24/07/2010

ahhh finally another day off.
I'm freakin' tired lately, and it's not gonna change until the end of the summer...
The little guy I'm looking after is adorable, but FULL of energy.... energy which I lack!

18/07/2010

OH, MY, EFFING, GOSH!

I hate hypocrite people.
You know, people who say :
"I don't wanna do that, because it'll take too long "( in other words : "it is usless, and it's for you so I don't give a sh!t about it!")
and then, by chance, you hear that those same people, want the exact same thing for them.

I've been so disappointed lately.I didn't think I could be more.
But obviously = I was WRONG! Haha.

I don't really care anymore, I mean it doesn't hurt me anymore, it's just VERY annoying, to learn what people are really thinking about when they're saying something.

Anyway : Screw you!
because I know you're gonna read that.
And that's PERFECT!

And now I feel a lil' better!

14/07/2010

Happy Bastille day to EVERY French in the world!

(Too bad the fireworks were canceled in my village....)

04/07/2010

And people still wonder why I DO love Donkey, and why I want one...
they're just so freaking cute, and intelligent.
♥

02/07/2010

Yesterday, was a really nice day, with some of my real friends

20/06/2010

"Space, is big. Really big. You just won't believe how vastly hugely mindbogglingly big it is. I mean you may think it's a long way down the road to the chemist, but that's just peanuts to space."
(from the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams)
I'm watching (another) documentary about our universe (because it's so fascinating, I can spend hours to look at this wonderful starry sky) and it's really scary to imagine (or try to) how "vastly hugely mindbogglingly big it is" and how beautifully dangerous it is.
But what is amazing is that everything is linked, the planets, solar systems, galaxies, black holes, nebulas, pulsars, quasars.... everything is part of where we all come and we're all gonna go back.
it's... (as Spock would say) fascinating.

19/06/2010

well, well, well...
Thinking about my future, and to be honest I thought it would have been easier to make the right choice.
I've talked with my love and Pucca about that, and both of them asked me why I didn't choose an Art school. The reason is : I've never thought I was good enough to do so.
I love art. I love it when I draw until I fall asleep on my paper sheet. But I don't like what I do, I have almost no imagination at all, and I lake a lot of knowledge about drawing techniques.
My utopian dream is to become a tattooist, I have this in my mind for years (since I'm 16 actually, so almost 5 years, but I had never told anyone until last week).
So I wonder, is that possible to take drawing lessons, improve my skill and try to find a job in a tattoo shop after that. It's gonna be really hard and long.
I don't know how I'm gonna do.
Because I'm also planning to go to the US. I would like to be an Au Pair. So I have to find a solution to do so...
If you do know how to do, please tell me and help me!

17/06/2010

Damn... I just can't believe that a week passed since I was in that store, doing some shopping and waiting to get my tattoo done....
A week... It seems like forever.... I miss this place... yeah it was Fairbanks, AK. Not too many people there, but it was a very nice place and I was with my love everyday...
Now, I miss everything, especially him...
I can't wait to go back to the US.
I know that I'll go back there as soon as I have enough money.
I don't care if it's for vacation or work.
I'm just.... gonna go back there, no matter what.

16/06/2010

I'm back from the US.
And to be honest, I don't think I belong here anymore. The United States of America, stole a piece of my soul. I will go back there very soon, and for a longer time!
I really loved my stay there, Americans are so nice, I just can't believe how many of them helped me with that big smile on their face, and how many of them welcomed me in their country with wide opened arms.
It's such a blast to be a French girl there! Everyone, knows 1 or 2 words in French, and everyone tried to talk to me in my mother tongue. That's funny as hell.
I'm just so Happy I spent a week in Fairbanks, I had a lot of fun with my love, (and I've also been devastated to have to leave him so fast), everybody has been nice with me. But it has sometimes been complicated for me to understand everything though. The American English you hear on TV or in classes has nothing to do with the American English you hear in every day's life. But I guess it was OK, I understood the biggest part of what I've been told... the harder thing was when they didn't talk with me, so they didn't make any effort to slow down or use "normal" vocabulary instead of slang.
Anyway, I really really really wanna go back there soon!
And I'm gonna do everything I can to do so!

My mum is gonna help me to get a 35hours a week job, to be a kind of sitter. This is something that gonna help me finding a job as a Au Pair in the US.
Just pray for me guys, I do really need this job!!

31/05/2010

wow... I just can't believe that in two days, I'm gonna go to Paris (and then London) to get ready to go to the US!
I've waited that for 10 months.
I've been through a lot of things during that long period of time.
I've lost one friend, some others weren't really there for me, I've had problems in my family, and I felt very very depressed for about 6 months.
But now, with this trip in sight... it's just... indescribable.
As if all of this was just one beautiful dream...
But it's not! It's real!!

This M. Turner's draw has nothing in common with my trip, but I do truly love, admire and respect what he did. He was an amazing artist.

25/05/2010

sometimes people around me don't seem to understand how much what they say can hurt.
My bro just told me (because we were talking about the fact his girlfriend told him he was jealous) : anyway, what do you know about love? nobody loves you! your have no real boyfriend.

he is wrong and he doesn't seem to realize that he did hurt my feelings, because what he said was unfair and mean..

23/05/2010

all the bands I've seen in my life :

Eths x2
Lofofora x2
Tripod x2
Gogira x2
babylon pression
tagada jones
black bomb a
fis[ch]er
black list
Indochine
les plasticines (Indochine's 1st part, so not my own choice!)
Renaud
starmania
the Police
The gazette
exist trace
The arrs
Distraught Overlord x3
undercover slut
deep purple
the cranberries
parabellum
syndrome

I think I've forgotten some...

23/05/2010

I've spent a really really exhausting week...
My parents went to Tunisia for a thalassotherapy so I've been "alone" with my little brother (who's 18 by the way)...
At first his girlfriend came home, then I had (actually I wanted) to organize something for his birthday, but he did something else and invited some of his friends to come and eat pizzas. Fortunately they didn't stay very late, and I've been able to show him what I had prepared for him. I do think it made him happy.
But other than that, I had all of my final exams this week, so I had to wake up a 6:30 AM, go to university at 7:30 and drive for an hour.... then exams... and finally I could come back home, drive for an hour, and..... clean the house, because my brother is so lazy that the only idea to help me made him laugh...
I really felt like if I was Cinderella, tidying and cleaning the house everyday because my brother didn't tidy his things at all, cooking for him and me, and I couldn't complain.
I had to stayed up very late almost every nights because I was cleaning the house until 11:30PM...
And yesterday, we went to the store to buy things to eat for his "real party" (he said he had invited about 20/25 persons, but I don't think my parents are gonna like it), So we bought meat for BBQ, salads, potato chip, and some other stuff to make a cake.
Guess what he did? NOTHING, he was gazing at me and had his hands in his pockets. I asked him what did he want to eat because at the end it was HIS party but he kept on saying "hmm... I don't know.... I don't care..."
I flew into a rage and we came back home.
I've tried my best to be really nice with him, not to ask him to do everything in the house but some help... He has just been selfish... as usual... and I'm tired of that!
anyway, I've got to go, my parents are about to come back home!

17/05/2010

sometimes I wonder if I'm a normal person...
I have tons of projects, I wanna learn of lot of stuff about history, astronomy, special effects, languages and so on... But I know that, if I start to learn all that at university, I will fail, again and again... I can't stand when there are constraints of time and of good marks...

All this make me miserable.
I would like to say,
"hey I know exactly what I wanna do in life, and I'm 200% sure about that"
But I'm not sure, I don't know what to do at all, I don't even know if I'm gonna succeed in anything. That sucks or me...

16/05/2010

I'm just SO happy,
I've finally found the "Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory".
I first saw it on TV when I was about 8 years old, and I thought "WOW, this movie is just amazing!"
And then, a few years ago, I saw Tim Burton's movie "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory"... well, the movie was really cool, but to be honest.... I didn't like it as much as I have loved the 1st.

15/05/2010

happy birthday to my little Pucca

13/05/2010

"But I don't want to go among mad people," Alice remarked.
"Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."
"How do you know I'm mad?" said Alice.
"You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."
(Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, Chapter 6)

10/05/10

my head is about to explode.
I'm tired of this headache, it makes me feel dizzy...

10/05/10

I really love this bug haha, it's so greats, it gives me tones of informations !

by the way, one of my wisdom teeth hurt me really bad since Friday...
I hope I'm gonna get an appointment with the dentist so he can give me drugs to calm the pain.my dad made me LOLed when he asked me if I still am friend with her...
I answered "nope she's rejected everyone including me, so, that's fine with me,
I don't care anymore!

09/05/2010

Plan for my trip to the U.S.A :

• June 2nd : I'll leave to Paris first, then to London and I'll spend the night in the "check-in place" of the airport and it's gonna be boring and tiring as hell!
• June 3rd : take off.... 10 hours in a plane and landing in L.A, I'll go to the B. B. Youth Hostel IN Hollywood! I'll let my things there and start visiting and shopping, and I think I'll also go to Kat Von D's High Voltage Tattoo Shop
• June 4th : I'll probably go to Universal Studio Theme Park (if I find someone to go there with) and another drop by in the tattoo shop
  
• June 5th : last day to visit and go shopping because I'll be heading to Fairbanks AK. in the evening

09/05/2010

This is a new start from the very beginning,
I had some problems with a bunch of stupid girls, so I needed a new blog,
where I can write freely, without being judged or criticized by them!
Haha


To say a word about myself,
I'm Julie, 20, from France.
I'm a kid at heart, I can be a weirdo,
I love tattoos, drawing, reading, video games, movies, cartoons....
well that's all you need to know for the moment!