20/06/2010

"Space, is big. Really big. You just won't believe how vastly hugely mindbogglingly big it is. I mean you may think it's a long way down the road to the chemist, but that's just peanuts to space."
(from the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams)
I'm watching (another) documentary about our universe (because it's so fascinating, I can spend hours to look at this wonderful starry sky) and it's really scary to imagine (or try to) how "vastly hugely mindbogglingly big it is" and how beautifully dangerous it is.
But what is amazing is that everything is linked, the planets, solar systems, galaxies, black holes, nebulas, pulsars, quasars.... everything is part of where we all come and we're all gonna go back.
it's... (as Spock would say) fascinating.

19/06/2010

well, well, well...
Thinking about my future, and to be honest I thought it would have been easier to make the right choice.
I've talked with my love and Pucca about that, and both of them asked me why I didn't choose an Art school. The reason is : I've never thought I was good enough to do so.
I love art. I love it when I draw until I fall asleep on my paper sheet. But I don't like what I do, I have almost no imagination at all, and I lake a lot of knowledge about drawing techniques.
My utopian dream is to become a tattooist, I have this in my mind for years (since I'm 16 actually, so almost 5 years, but I had never told anyone until last week).
So I wonder, is that possible to take drawing lessons, improve my skill and try to find a job in a tattoo shop after that. It's gonna be really hard and long.
I don't know how I'm gonna do.
Because I'm also planning to go to the US. I would like to be an Au Pair. So I have to find a solution to do so...
If you do know how to do, please tell me and help me!

17/06/2010

Damn... I just can't believe that a week passed since I was in that store, doing some shopping and waiting to get my tattoo done....
A week... It seems like forever.... I miss this place... yeah it was Fairbanks, AK. Not too many people there, but it was a very nice place and I was with my love everyday...
Now, I miss everything, especially him...
I can't wait to go back to the US.
I know that I'll go back there as soon as I have enough money.
I don't care if it's for vacation or work.
I'm just.... gonna go back there, no matter what.

16/06/2010

I'm back from the US.
And to be honest, I don't think I belong here anymore. The United States of America, stole a piece of my soul. I will go back there very soon, and for a longer time!
I really loved my stay there, Americans are so nice, I just can't believe how many of them helped me with that big smile on their face, and how many of them welcomed me in their country with wide opened arms.
It's such a blast to be a French girl there! Everyone, knows 1 or 2 words in French, and everyone tried to talk to me in my mother tongue. That's funny as hell.
I'm just so Happy I spent a week in Fairbanks, I had a lot of fun with my love, (and I've also been devastated to have to leave him so fast), everybody has been nice with me. But it has sometimes been complicated for me to understand everything though. The American English you hear on TV or in classes has nothing to do with the American English you hear in every day's life. But I guess it was OK, I understood the biggest part of what I've been told... the harder thing was when they didn't talk with me, so they didn't make any effort to slow down or use "normal" vocabulary instead of slang.
Anyway, I really really really wanna go back there soon!
And I'm gonna do everything I can to do so!

My mum is gonna help me to get a 35hours a week job, to be a kind of sitter. This is something that gonna help me finding a job as a Au Pair in the US.
Just pray for me guys, I do really need this job!!